When you Start Something New

Have you ever started a new project, taken on a new challenge, or started anything new and then immediately after felt like you’ve bitten off more than you can chew? Maybe you’ve started learning a new language, and soon after starting, you realized how much vocabulary or grammar you’d have to learn in order to even start having simple conversations.

After this kind of realization, it’s like this dark cloud forms above you and all of these self doubts start to come up, and you start to feel like you’re going to have to do a whole lot of work before you see any results.

It’s like you have a goal to climb Mount Fuji, and you’re all excited to start, and to get to the top. Then when you arrive, and walk through to the first rest stop, you realize just how huge the mountain is, and you dread all of the work you’re going to have to do to get to the top.

This happened to me when I first started learning Japanese. It’s so completely different from English, and it seemed like it would take forever to get even some basic conversation skills going, with all of the grammar, words, and Japanese characters that I had to learn.

And it’s true that it did take a long time to get some basic conversations going. But somehow I didn’t let it phase me, and I thought that if I kept going, I’d be closer and closer to reaching my goal. I’m pretty fluent in Japanese now, by the way, so I did end up reaching my goal eventually.

But if you do feel the same way, like your goal is very far away, don’t let it stop you from pursuing what you want. When we make the decision to start something new, inner blocks are brought to the surface, but these blocks can be overcome if you persist at your goals.

I’m at a phase in my life where I want to overcome my shyness in approaching girls that I’m attracted to, no matter what the situation is. I’ve been shy all my life, and always had a hard time knowing how to talk to girls. But over the years, this has felt more and more of a burden to my freedom, and I feel like I’ve been missing out on a lot of potential great experiences. So I made the decision that I would try to overcome my fear of approaching women on the streets.

Today, I went out with a friend and approached some girls. It went better than I thought, and I had fun, and it wasn’t important to me whether these approaches lead to a date or anything. But after that experience, I noticed how hesitant I was and how nervous I am about rejection.

So all of these fears surfaced, about how hard it would be to overcome all of this nervousness, and how hard it would be to just feel comfortable about talking to random girls on the street. And how hard it would be to actually come across as confident and attractive enough to take some of these girls out on a date. It seems like there’s a hell of a lot of work to be done before I can reap the rewards of my approaching.

One thing to remember if you’re having a similar experience, is that it’s not about the destination, it’s about the journey. I know it sounds cliche, but it’s true. Anytime you make a decision to start something new, it’s because you want to change something about yourself, something that is holding you back from being your best self, or stopping you from having certain experiences.

In order to be free, or to have the experiences you want, a part of you needs to die, in order for something else to be reborn. So this process of death and rebirth of self is the whole meat of the experience, and any rewards that you experience are like extras for you to enjoy. But the thing that will give you the most satisfaction is not the destination, it’s the realization of how much you’ve changed since you started trying to accomplish your goals.

So if you’re having some inner blocks or fears come up, just allow yourself to experience those fears and blocks, and then to let them go when you’re ready to move towards your goals again. And then get back to working towards those goals. Good luck!


Becoming an Alchemist

In my blog, I’ve written about slaying dragons. The essence of dragon slaying, in a more practical sense, is dealing with emotional trauma, or what is sometimes referred to in mainstream culture as dealing with your inner demons.

When you confront your own inner demons, you are in a way transforming your emotions. You are experiencing fear, sadness, anger, anxiety, or whatever heavy emotions you might be carrying, and you are transforming that into higher vibrational emotions. When you transform something into another thing of greater value, this is what is classically called alchemy. Of course emotions are not physical objects, but the emotions you carry in your subconscious mind do affect your physical experiences because your consciousness directly creates your experience of life, including physical manifestations.

Would you rather be carrying the emotion of fear, or the feeling of courage and confidence? I think most people would agree that they’d rather be courageous than fearful.

So how do you become courageous? You have to face your fears. How do you become happier? You face your sadness. How do you feel confident and good about yourself? Face you insecurities and self-limiting beliefs.

You’re the one who has the choice. You can either choose to ignore your inner demons, or you can choose to face them and challenge them. I think most people agree that it’s a good thing to face your fears. And maybe we all want to believe that we can and will face our fears. But I think a lot of people struggle to do this.

The problem is not that people don’t want to face their fears. If I use my analogy of slaying dragons, you are the knight. Maybe the problem is that you went to the wrong “Knight training academy” and all you learned was how to kill a teddy bear with a wooden stick. And you didn’t receive proper training about the real dangers of a dragon, and how to defeat one.

Imagine mainstream society being that poorly funded knight academy. They didn’t prepare you to slay dragons, they just gave you a wooden stick and a teddy bear to slay and told you that real dragons don’t exist. They sheltered you from the dangers that are lurking, and if you ever saw a real dragon, they’d probably call you crazy and delusional or blame you for witchcraft or something.

In our modern society, there is often a stigma attached to mental illness, and western doctors often prescribe potentially dangerous drugs as ways to suppress the symptoms. We are not taught how to properly deal with our inner demons, we are not taught how to slay dragons. This is largely what causes a society that is crippled with mental illness, addiction, etc.

Essentially, we’ve lost the art of alchemy in today’s age. If we can become alchemists and transform our own emotions, we can see how powerful we really are. Because we’re more powerful than we think.

You Are What You Believe You Are

Do you have low self-esteem? Do you believe you’re not good enough, that you’re too weak, or that you’ll never succeed? Well, chances are that it’s true. And the only person to blame is yourself.

I know it sounds harsh, but in a way it’s true. Of course, shit happens to everyone which causes them to grow up developing negative self beliefs, and I’m not discrediting that. But the truth is that we all have a choice in what beliefs we hold about ourselves. We are responsible for how we see ourselves.

The interesting thing about slaying dragons (the term I use to describe facing our inner demons), is that when we slay these dragons which make up our “shadow selves”, we realize that some of these dragons are just emotions and self beliefs that we picked up along our earlier lives.

What happens when you let go of old emotions and self beliefs? Well, we start to see the truth. We start to see who we really are, we can start to feel it in our very core. When we start forming new self beliefs based on these new feelings, we start naturally seeing ourselves in a new way.

Eventually, we start acting out of the new beliefs, and we become what we believe. Of course, this doesn’t happen overnight; it’s a long process. But once we know this to be true, we can start to consciously face old self-limiting beliefs, and become a better version of ourselves.

How to Be a Real Life Dragon Slayer

Just for a bit of context, I wrote an article about slaying dragons here. Read this for a bit of an intro into this topic.

Without further ado, here is how to slay dragons:

  1. Find out what things trigger your negative emotions. Search for the dragon
  2. Try to expose yourself to these triggers slowly, so you can get a sense of how the negative emotions feel (you are inching towards the dragon to get an idea of what you’re up against)
  3. When you see the dragon, don’t panic and regret that you took a look. Just accept that the dragon is there and that you are a dragon slayer whose purpose is to slay the dragon. That means don’t freak out about feeling negative emotions and freak out about why these emotions are coming up, just feel them
  4. When you accept that the dragon is there, you can examine it and see what it’s all about. This is the first step to figuring out how you can slay it. You might remember times in your childhood that created these feelings in the first place
  5. When you trigger yourself enough, you are gradually seeing more and more of the dragon. And thus you are finding it’s weaknesses. This means that you are learning more and more about where the negative emotions came from(childhood, ect).
  6. Once you’ve studied the dragon enough (i.e been triggered enough and allowed yourself sufficient time to feel the negative emotion), you can start thinking about how you’re gonna slay it. You realize that these emotions originated from childhood, and that they are not the real you. They are only a result of the limited perception you had when you were younger.
  7. Slay the motherfucker. This means doing the thing that scares you, despite your fear, because now you have the courage and the ability to transcend the thing you fear. Once you understand the dragon and where it came from, you can slay it. Once you know why certain things trigger you, you can accept that being triggered scares you and you can face that fear until you transcend it.

Breaking News: Men Have Stopped Slaying Dragons

The oldest tale known to man is the story of the archetypal hero. It’s the knight who slays the dragon and brings back the gold to the village, it’s the superhero who defeats the supervillian and keep the world safe. It’s a story that’s been told for a very long time in human history, in many different forms across many ages and cultures.

The reason why the hero story is so deep to the human heart, is because of the meaning that the story carries. Young boys grow up, inspired by superheros and strong men who defeat the bad guys; they want to be just like that. Even as adult men, we enjoy a good tale about a guy who starts from the bottom and gains the power to overcome adversity (think Spiderman, Peter Parker is a weak guy who realizes his true power and makes it his responsibility to use his power for good).

Why is this story so deeply touching? Because these stories hint to us, what our purpose is as men. These stories are essentially telling us what the masculine energy represents, and we subconsciously feel very inspired by these tales, because they point us toward our life purpose as men.

Take the story of the dragon-slaying knight, for example. The knight represents the masucline energy. It’s the job of the knight to protect his people from the dangers of the dragon. The dragon is a symbol of chaos. Chaos comes from the feminine energy, that’s why there’s often an evil witch who summons the dragon in the first place.

The knight’s purpose is to defeat the dragon, in order to bring safety to his people, and to bring back the gold, so that his people may prosper. Fighting the dragon is dangerous, and it’s terryfing, but this is the knight’s purpose.

Now let’s relate this story to our daily life, in our modern age society. Obviously we don’t have actual dragons to slay in real life , but we do have metaphorical dragons to slay. That’s why the hero story interests us.

In today’s advanced societies of internet, abundant food/water, and other daily necessities and comforts, we are not in physical danger of dragons destroying our homes. In other words, we are (for the most part) not in any physical danger. Today’s source of danger comes more from emotional problems. Think about the rampant increase in mental disorders like depression and suicide across the globe, especially in advanced societies like America and Japan.

You can say that the modern-day dragons are our own internal emotional dragons (hence the term ‘inner demons’ to describe the negative emotions which lurk hidden within us). They usually come out when we try to step out our comfort zones, overcome some kind of fear, make a positive change in our lives, or accomplish something difficult.

The world right now is in chaos. People are depressed, feeling trapped in 9-5 jobs, and always looking for an escape from the grind of daily life. Men and women are becoming more and more disconnected, as one night stands and hook-ups replace actual relationships, and many men turn to relationship substitutes, such as pornography, prostitution, or even very soon, sex bots. Birth rates are declining, mental disorders are increasing.

What is the problem? Why are thing in such chaos right now? Because as a society, men are taught that in order to be a man, they need to be strong. The idea is that strong men don’t show their emotions. This creates a lot of men who are totally out of touch with their emotions, and instead using drugs and other addictions to cope with the emotions that they feel.

Basically, men lose their power when they choose to hide from their internal chaos. You can say that they aren’t slaying the dragons. They are refusing to even admit that the dragons (negative feelings) are there in the first place. They do whatever they can to distract themselves from acknowledging the existence of the dragons. This means drugs, porn, partying, videos games, sex, gambling and many other things. Anything that gives short term pleasure, because that pleasure masks the negative feelings.

What would happen in the hero’s story, if all the knights refused to acknowledge the existence of the dragon? Maybe they would pretend the dragon doesn’t exist, by chilling at the bar and getting wasted with their other knight buddies. Eventually the dragon would come and destroy the town. That’s the consequence of not facing the dragon. It’s destruction. Chaos takes over and all is lost. It’s tragic.

So why do you think the world is in such chaos? Men aren’t slaying the god-damn dragons, because they’re not facing their negative emotions. Once men start getting back to their dragon slaying selves, they’ll begin to discover their true power. This is when we can start bringing back order and stability back to our world.

Here’s how to slay dragons, in case you don’t know where to start.

Happy dragon slaying!

Coffee Time Thoughts: Cryptocurrency’s relation to 5D consciousness shift?

Cryptocurrencies have been getting a lot of publicity lately, especially Bitcoin. I’m not going to go into what a cryptocurrency is, so you can read an intro about it here, if you’re not familiar.

A lot of dramatic political events and world events have also been happening recently, which you’re probably aware of, unless you’ve been living under a rock for the past year or so (think Donald Trump, North Korean missiles, ISIS, etc).

About Paper Money and Stocks

Let’s think about stocks and fiat currency first. I’m no expert on economical or financial matters, so please bare with me and my layman’s knowledge on the matters.

The money that rules all of our societies in modern life, is a fiat currency. It means that it is a currency which has no intrinsic value, unlike other currencies such as gold (which is a rare and precious metal). The value of this type of currency comes from our conscious belief that it is valuable.

Paper money is a fiat currency because it has no intrinsic value; it is just paper. So why is it valuable? Because we believe it has value; we give paper money its value solely by collectively believing and agreeing that it is valuable.

It’s as if our conscious mental energy/beliefs are given a physical representation as paper money. What is that law in psychics, again? That energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed. Well, with fiat currency, our conscious energy is represented in a physical form, as “valuable” paper money.

The stock market works the same way. One thing that gives a stock its value, are the investors’ beliefs that the stock/company is valuable. Investor Jimmy thinks “Oh man, this stock is a great investment because the value is gonna go up sometime in the future, and I’ll make some money”. So investor Jimmy buys the stocks, with the belief that the value will increase. If lots of investor’s are buying these stocks, the stock value increases.

Once investors think the stock is going to decrease in value, they sell, in order to get their money back before the stock value drops too low. When people sell the stock, it’s as if they are consciously choosing to believe that the stock is no longer valuable, they are opting out and putting their belief back into the fiat currency that they spent to buy the stock in the first place. The flow of fiat money to buy or sell stocks is like a metaphorical representation of our changing conscious beliefs.

Of course this is an oversimplified way of how the stock market. As I said, I’m not by any means an expert in this area.

How are cyptocurrencies and current world events related?

So back to cryptocurrencies. They don’t have any centralized bank or government, unlike our paper money, which is controlled by central banks/the government. The government has the ability print more money, and the more they print, the lower the value our paper money has.

With all the volatility happening in the world right now, I think people are starting to question their governments’ true interests and intentions. People are waking up to the lies and the state of control that the governments seem to have us locked into, and gradually, more and more people are losing their trust in the governments. Think Trump and his denying of climate change. Who’s interests does he really have in heart? The planet’s, or the rich oil companies who will lose their profits if we switch to a free/renewable energy source?

The collective’s awakening  and unhappiness in face of the grim state of our world and it’s goverments, to me, is related to what is happening with cryptocurrencies. As more and more people are losing trust in their governments, they are consciously and/or subconsciously finding ways to resist the government’s lies and their attempts to keep us controlled.

By increasingly transferring fiat money into bitcoin, it’s as if the collective is symbolically choosing to misplace their trust and belief in the government, and in the value of fiat currency. And instead, putting that conscious belief into a source of money which is decentralized and not controlled by anyone. They are buying cryptocurrencies because they believe that it’s valuable, and the way of the future. Governments and centralized banks will gradually lose their influence as cryptocurrenicies gain more collective support.

How does this relate to the 5D shift?

One of my beliefs is that we are collectively, as a human race, shifting into a more interconnected, freer and heart-based consciousness (shifting into 5D consciousness). I’m not gonna go into what that means now, you can read about that elsewhere. Part of this shift is the breaking down of fear/control based institutions such as the governments, and others who are influencing and pulling the strings in our society.

I believe that the collapse of fiat currency and centralized governments is an important step toward the shift to 5D consciousness. We need to be free of the government, we need to be free of them controlling us, so we can all be empowered human beings making our own decisions, rather than blind sheep or slaves lead by the government.

I’m not saying that cryptocurrencies are the answer that will save all of humanity from the government’s control. Or that a cryptocurrency based society is better than a fiat currency based society. All I’m saying is that this recent popularity in bitcoins and other cryptocurrencies is a sign of the collectives’ shift in beliefs, which may or may not eventually lead to the collapse of centralized banks, and controlling government structures.

So to me, this trend is step in the right direction for our own freedom from the government. I don’t know much about cryptocurrencies, how they were created, where the idea came from, or the intention behind them. I’ve even heard that some people believe cryptocurrencies were created by AI to control humanity, that it came from aliens, and lots of other wild theories, but I honestly don’t know the truth. So I’ll leave that discussion for another time.

The Dark Side of Japan: Why Japanese people aren’t really ‘Genki’

Japan is a great country, with a rich culture, kind and truly thoughtful people, beautiful nature and the list can go on forever. But, as all countries do, Japan also has a dark side. There is no perfect country, because if there was, every country would follow in that example.

So this post is not intended to criticize, or hate on Japan. I love this country and it’s people, and that’s why I choose to live here. I empathize with the Japanese people deeply in regards to the topic of this post, and I only wish for the best for the people living in this country, of whom I’ve come to love and admire greatly.

Japan is a collectivist society, and a shame culture. A collectivist society is one which emphasizes group harmony and goals over individual desires or needs. Western cultures operate more on individualism, which emphasizes the self, and the self’s goals, desires and happiness. The important thing to note is that neither of these is better than the other, neither is right nor wrong. They are just different sides of the same coin.

A shame culture is one where shame is inflicted upon those who behave in a culturally unacceptable way in order to control and maintain social structure. The combination of the collectivist culture, and the shame culture can create a dangerous combination, leading to consequences in the emotional well-being of the individual.

In Japan, there is a famous saying “The nail that sticks up gets hammered down”. This phrase really reveals and sums up the harmful essence of the combination of the collectivist society and the shame culture. It means that you must fit in and do as everyone else (as in collectivism), or you will be punished (with shame).

Let me get into some specific observations I’ve made about the collectivist/shame culture, and how it affects Japanese society.

Here in Japan, people seem to be very conscious and concerned about what others may be thinking about them. This is because of the huge pressure to blend in, conform and be the same. It is a large source of discomfort for Japanese people to be behaving differently than other people, especially in public. This is because it triggers a shame response. This constant preoccupation – of how one is being perceived but others – in itself is a huge source of anxiety, which I won’t even get into in this post.

When I’m in public here in Japan, I get a feeling that I need to restrict my public behavior to match everyone else’s behavior. When I’m doing something out of place, I feel this sort of uncomfortable vibe, like everyone is silently watching me and judging me for acting differently.

I notice that this perceived judging triggers a shame response in me, which immediately causes me to want to correct my behavior. I’m pretty sensitive to these kinds of vibes (read about clairsentience here), so I learned very quickly that I need to really pay attention to how others are acting when I’m out in public.

Shame is also connected to the “uchi” (内, inside)  and “soto” (外, outside) culture in Japan, but I won’t get into these in detail here. Japanese people act very differently when they are in public, versus in a more private setting, such as the home. Because of the shame culture, many Japanese people hold a lot of repressed shame about who they are individually, so naturally, they will normally only show those closest to them who they really are.

This is one reason why a lot of Japanese people are hesitant to invite others into their home. Someone inviting you into their home is like an act of vulnerability, because the home is where someone is most free to be themselves. A home can tell you a lot about the kind of person who is living there. Someone with a lot of shame isn’t comfortable in showing people who they really are. It’s more comfortable for them to put on a ‘mask’ to show others in public that they are an acceptable member of society.

How does this collectivist/shame culture really affect people on an individual level?

The true damage is really done in the individual’s childhood years. We are most vulnerable and open to everything around us in these years. Children are like sponges which absorb everything around them, and the subconscious mind records and remembers all that has ever been experienced. Painful childhood experiences and the messages we receive about ourselves are what teach us to close off and protect ourselves emotionally as adolescents and adults.

Imagine a young boy who feels different from others, for whatever reason. Maybe the other boys like to play with trucks, and they talk a lot, while this boy is quiet and likes to dance, and play with more ‘feminine’ toys. *Note: This is just an arbitrary example, not something that specifically happens in Japan.

The message that the collectivist/shame culture might send to this boy, is that they are not okay to be the way they are, that they have to change themselves in order to gain love and acceptance of those around them. If this boy does not change and behave like the other boys, he is faced with the threat of ostracism. None of this will be directly said to him, most likely. No one is going to tell the young boy that he isn’t normal and that he has to change (perhaps other than other boys his age). But this is the subconscious message that he will pick up from the cues given by the his family, school or peers.

The boy is effectively programmed into following this message through the use of shame, whenever he acts in a way that is not socially desirable. As the boy grows up, there is a lot of repressed shame about who he really is. There is a lack of self love and acceptance because the shame taught him that he is not okay as he is, and must act differently in order to be loved and accepted.

Thus, shame taught the child to seek love and acceptance externally by acting in this socially accepted way. This poor child will most likely grow up with a lot of emotional discomfort caused by the repressed shame. This can manifest addictions (sexual addictions are very common in Japan) and/or emotional and mental problems, as a way to cover up and cope with the emotional pain.

This boy grows up with significant emotional baggage, and is no longer the same vibrant, happy child he once was, when he was able to express himself freely. He is no longer ‘genki’ (read about the meaning of ‘Genki’ here).

I admire that Japan values group harmony, over individual happiness, and I see nothing wrong with that in itself. But the problem I see, is with its manipulation (whether intentionally or not) with shame upon vulnerable Japanese children. Is there a way that we can live in harmony, whilst also accepting individual differences and loving others unconditionally?

I understand that this is a difficult topic, and finding a practical solution is very difficult. But hopefully by understanding a bit of the root of the Japanese society’s suffering can we begin to rethink ways of how we can all treat each other in a kinder and more loving way. So that we can truly live together in harmony both inside the home and outside in public, rather than just appearing to live in harmony on the surface.

The core of this issue is that Japanese society has focused too much on public/external harmony, without giving enough consideration to the internal well-being/individual harmony, or peace of the individual. They did this by controlling others with the use of shame, in order to maintain social order. And while things appear very smooth, happy and polished on the surface in Japan, a deeper look will reveal a real darkness which lies behind the public facade.

As I mentioned before, neither the collectivist society, nor the individualistic society is totally correct. They are like two sides of the same coin. You can say that the Ying and Yang is out of balance, and maybe the Japanese can integrate and learn from Western Individualism to balance out the two sides. And of course, the West can also learn a thing or two from the Eastern collectivism.